Back to work today. Was good as TOIL and I had words last night. That is actually quite rare these days, we get on fantastically well! I just left this morning without saying goodbye, or wishing him a good day, like I usually do. No contact all day. I am home now, and he is still out on the farm, we have started lambing, so he will be flat out for the next few months.
The thing we disagreed about was actually (as usual) pretty stupid. I just said that in all the time I have been blogging, I am surprised he has never thought to look at what I post. He knows I do this. I even told him the name of the blog. He has never looked. His reply is that why would he look, as he knows how much he hurt me, and it is probably just all negative and horrid. I looked at him and actually laughed (I think it was laughing, it’s been a long time since I heard that sound coming from my body!) I just said that I didn’t WANT him to look, just thought it almost inhuman to have the willpower not to – which in and of itself is abso-fucking-lootely hilarious. HE has willpower not to “snoop” or display human curiosity, and I would find that hard, and yet I have never found faithfulness hard, you get the picture…..
So, he asked me again (for the fourth time) what the blog is called, and I refused to say, as really I don’t WANT him to look, I just wonder why he doesn’t want to? See, I really am quite certifiable!
The thing is, I get what he says, but it just demonstrates to me how different he and I have become. I would be champing at the bit to see how I was portrayed, and his perspective if he blogged. He doesn’t seem to care. Mmmmm, why does that seem so familiar?
So, work was busy, I am only in the office one day a week at the moment, so I play catch up all day. I needed that.
Oh, and in other news, have my first first semester result in. A+. Woot, woot. Starting to scare myself now as I only have A+s in all the papers I have sat since returning to uni in this reincarnation, starting to feel pressure to keep up the average, hope I don’t let myself down with the other two results!
Ms Skitey Pants is alive and well 🙂