Missing someone is always a bit shit. Stink being so far apart, and having not seen that barman for a while.
But nothing compared to how I pined for Rog when we were apart.
I can remember him coming back from a two week hunting trip, when our eldest was a toddler. He told me how the other boys were all so happy to “get away from the ball and chain.”
But not him. He missed me like crazy. Said it was physical pain.
I often wonder if he tells Trinket the same lies.
I still ache for him. Again, not this him. The him I thought he was.
The way I ached for him when I was in the UK, and he was off fucking the whole town. I mean, it was okay, we were separated. But I fucked no one. And ached for him, while we wrote to each other three times a week.
Ugh. He really made me believe we were destined for each other.
A fully grown, supposedly intelligent woman. FFS 🤦♀️